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Ownfic: "Gifts" for therealsnape

Aaaaaaannnd... we're ready for take-off :). Here's our most aptly titled first fic. Enjoy!

Title: Gifts
Author: kellychambliss
Recipient: therealsnape
Characters/Pairings: McGonagall/Snape, Dumbledore, Sprout
Rating: R
Warnings (highlight to view): dub-con, bdsm
Word Count: 8100 words
Summary: On the day of Snape's return to Hogwarts as Headmaster, he settles some old scores and makes some offerings.
Author's Notes: My grateful thanks to my excellent beta reader, who not only offered useful suggestions, but also helped pull me out of the funk I fell into when I decided that this story was the most OOC bit of silliness since Nicolas Flamel took up synchronized swimming. I hope it's something near to what you thought it might be, therealsnape!



Sprout

". . . what I think would be best -- that is, if you agree, Pomona. . ."

Start-of-school checklist in hand, Minerva McGonagall disappeared around the corner near the Charms classroom, her voice fading as she left Pomona Sprout farther behind. Pomona sighed and tried to hurry her short legs a little faster: when Minerva was in this "organizing" mood, there was no persuading her to slow down. Oh, she'd make the effort for a minute or two, but then energy and purpose would drive her on at a speed all her own. It was easier just to puff along in her wake as best one could. . .

But when Pomona turned the corner herself, she nearly cannoned into Minerva, who was standing rigid in the middle of the corridor.

She held up a hand to stop Sprout's advance. "The wards. . .they just shifted. . ." she whispered.

Pomona stood silently. Minerva had always been more attuned to the magic of the castle than Sprout had, and now that she was Headmistress, McGonagall had even more access to Hogwarts' secrets. As the new Deputy Head, Pomona had gained some powers, too, but she hadn’t felt any change in the wards just now. She hoped the castle wasn't trying to tell her she wasn't up to the deputy's job. Not now, only a day before the students arrived for the new term.

Finally Minerva shook her head, frustrated. "Someone's got into the Headmaster's office, I'm sure of it," she said. "But I can't sense anything more; it's very strange. . ."

Even now, weeks after Albus's funeral, Minerva didn't call the Head's office her own, and she spent as little time there as possible, mostly only when she needed to meet official visitors. Pomona assumed that Minerva stayed away because she couldn't bear to be surrounded by painful reminders of Dumbledore and their long friendship, but when she'd said as much, Minerva had replied, "Yes, there is a great deal of Albus in that office."

In thinking about it later, Pomona saw that this answer was more open to interpretation than she had initially realised. She put it out of her mind, though: Minerva would take over the office when she wanted to and not before, and in the meantime, they had more important worries. Like the one facing them at this moment -- an intruder? Last time there'd been intruders in Hogwarts, the Headmaster had died. Please let this be just a mistake, Pomona thought. Please.

"Come." Shrinking her checklist to pocket-size, Minerva turned and headed in the direction of the Head's office.

"Minerva, wait!" Pomona called. "Don't you think we should get someone to go with us? Just in case. . ."

McGonagall swept on, without pause, without reply. Sighing again, Pomona hustled after her.

~ ~ ~

When Sprout reached the office, the door next to the stone gargoyle was already open, but the circular stairs were unmoving. Minerva had flattened herself against the wall next to the opening, her wand out. Waiting just until Pomona fell in behind her, she began cautiously to ascend, using a mirror charm to see the stair beyond her as she climbed.

They reached the top without incident. "Ostendo," Minerva whispered, and the heavy oak door slowly grew transparent.

As far as Pomona could tell, the office looked exactly as it had when Albus had been alive. No one seemed to be present; nothing had been disturbed.

"There was someone here, I know it," Minerva said, in closer to her usual tones. Waving the wood back to its normal state, she held her wand before her as she opened the door a crack and slipped through.
Convinced now that it was a false alarm, Pomona followed, in time to hear Minerva cry out, "You!"

Turning from one of the cabinets on the side wall, his face a mask of disdain, was Severus Snape.

~ ~ ~

"Professor McGonagall. Professor Sprout. What are you doing in my office uninvited?"

"Your office?" Pomona gasped. She was surprised she found breath enough to speak, her heart was pounding that fast. But Minerva, made of sterner stuff, was able to say nothing; Pomona couldn't help but admire her control.

Ignoring Sprout, Snape handed Minerva a parchment bristling with the sort of Ministry seals charmed to open to only one wand: hers, apparently. She touched each one quickly and read the official-looking scroll with a mix of emotions crossing her face: surprise, anger, and finally a bitter amusement.

"I see," she said at last, looking at Snape. "Your office, indeed. Let us go, Pomona." Without another word, she turned to leave.

"Wait," Snape ordered. "I want to make a few things clear."

Minerva turned back. "Yes, Severus?" She kept her voice even, although Pomona thought it probably cost her some effort.

"You shall address me as 'Headmaster'," said Snape, equalling her uninflected calm.

Pomona choked. Headmaster?

Minerva's lips twitched, as if she found this pretension funny, but she inclined her head solemnly. "Headmaster," she agreed, and waited silently for him to continue.

Amazing, Pomona thought. If she were in Minerva's situation, she'd be chattering like a nervous flitterbird, she knew she would. Ousted from her position by Severus Snape? Who was now apparently the Headmaster of Hogwarts? How on earth could that be?

"The Ministry expects you to remain as Deputy Headmistress, Minerva," Snape announced. "And as Headmaster, I expect your complete loyalty and obedience, even if I am" -- here he smirked -- "Dumbledore's murderer."

"I don't offer loyalty or obedience on command," Minerva snapped. "I'm not your pet dog. And you are not Albus's murderer."

Pomona felt her eyes widen. Not Albus's murderer? Of course he was. Harry Potter had seen him, up on the ramparts of the highest tower: Snape had sent a Killing Curse into the Headmaster in cold blood. Cold blood. Everyone knew that. Whatever was Minerva talking about?

Evidently Snape was wondering the same thing. His eyes narrowed. "Not his murderer? But didn't you hear Potter's report? Do you mean that you, of all people, don't accept the word of The Chosen One?"

"Oh, you killed Albus, without question. But I don't believe for a moment that you murdered him. I believe you did exactly what Albus wanted you to do, the way you always did. As too many of us always did." She shot a look at Dumbledore's portrait, and Pomona was shocked at the depth of hurt and resentment she saw in her friend's face.

"No," she breathed, reaching out her hand almost involuntarily. . .Minerva idolized Albus, everyone knew that, too. "Minerva, don't say that. . ."

But the others seemed to have forgotten Sprout's presence.

"Why would Albus want me to kill him?" Snape was asking Minerva silkily, and Pomona shivered at how dangerous he sounded.

Minerva, however, was unfazed. "Do you think Albus ever deigned to tell me why he wanted anything? Or what he planned? I was a tool to him, Severus, just as you are. Or you used to be. I don't know what you are now. You and Dumbledore are both playing some damned dark game of your own. You're treating this war as if it's a grand Wizard chess match for the lads. With the rest of us as pawns. It's the sort of sport Albus always liked best, but I'd hoped for better from you."

"No!" This was just too much. Pomona couldn't stay quiet, no matter how frightening Snape looked. He was just Severus, after all, she reminded herself; she'd known him since he was a child.

"No!" she shouted again, and at last her colleagues looked at her. "That's not true, Minerva. Albus wasn't like that. He cared about you, he cared about both of you, he did. . ."

"Oh, no doubt," said Minerva impatiently. She turned to the portrait. "You cared, didn't you, Albus?" she asked, grief and anger making her voice raw. "The way you'd care about a puppy. Because pets have their uses, don't they? They provide constant love. They can be trained. Made to heel. Even given simple tasks. . ."

"Minerva. . ." said Albus's portrait, and the pain in his voice just wrung Pomona's heart. "I'm sorry. . ."

"Enough." Snape sounded deadly now, and Minerva, too, was back in charge of herself. She stared at the new headmaster levelly.

Pomona twisted her hands together and looked at the floor.

"Professor McGonagall, I ask you again," Snape said. "Will you give me your unconditional loyalty and obedience?"

"I will do my job with the utmost professionalism, of that you may be assured. If that's not sufficient, then I will write my resignation letter now."

Snape shrugged, seeming unconcerned. "As you please. The choice is yours, Professor. You are free to go if you wish."

"I should hope so. . .Headmaster." She edged the word with just the hint of a Snapian sneer. "This is still Hogwarts, not Azkaban. Yet."

From the desk, she picked up quill and parchment, and Snape waited until she began to write before he said, conversationally, "Pride is such an. . .admirable Gryffindor trait. It sustains you well. I can only hope it will do the same for your students."

McGonagall looked up sharply. "Meaning. . .?"

"If I have to replace you in Transfiguration, I shall hire Rodolphus Lestrange. You were his teacher; I'm sure you know how well-qualified he is. And with the replacements in Muggle Studies and DADA, we will have three of the Dark Lord's supporters on the staff. They all believe in severe discipline for misbehaving or lazy students, especially for anyone not a Pureblood." He spoke slowly, watching her. "As headmaster, I wouldn't dream of interfering with the pedagogical methods of qualified teachers."

Minerva thrust the quill back onto the desk with such force that the point snapped. "Damn you, Severus," she said.

Snape crossed to her in two long strides and seized her wrist, pulling her towards him. "You shall call me 'Headmaster,'" he said, enunciating each word, "and you shall give me your total and unquestioning support. You are my subordinate, and you will be serving under me. In a variety of capacities. Do you understand me?"

Pomona wished she had the nerve to conjure herself a chair; she was shaking so badly she feared she'd fall right over. That couldn't possibly have been a sexual threat Severus had just made. . .could it?

Could it? Of course not, but. . .

But there had been a moment, some years ago now. . .only a moment, when she had wondered -- just fleetingly -- if Minerva and Severus had become something more than mere colleagues.

It had happened at Albus's annual Christmas social for the staff. There had been a great deal to drink -- Albus was always a generous host -- and as they had all prepared to leave, Snape had helped Minerva to her feet. This in itself wasn't completely unusual, since Severus had several times disarmed Pomona with unexpected courtliness.

But then he'd put his hand, ever so briefly, on Minerva's waist. He'd meant only to steady her, Pomona had assumed -- not that Minerva had seemed at all unsteady -- but he'd placed his hand just that much too high, closer to her breast than her waist, actually, and there had been something about that touch, something somehow intimate, that had made Pomona think, could they be. . .?

But that was nonsense, of course; Minerva was at least three decades older than Severus, and he'd once been her student, for Merlin's sake. It had just been an innocent slip of the hand, quickly rectified, and Pomona had chastised herself for her own grubby mind.

And now here she was, doing it again, reading sex into things even at a time like this. Pomona Sprout! she told herself sternly. Pull yourself together.

But what had Severus meant by "you'll serve under me"? The way he'd spoken -- it had been more than just a reminder to Minerva that she'd be his subordinate. It was a threat of some kind, Pomona was sure of it. A threat to a colleague! From a man she'd once trusted, even grown fond of. Dear god, what was happening to them all? She wanted to say something, to protest, but no one was paying any attention to her.

Snape was still looking at Minerva, tightening his already-punishing grip on her arm. "Do you understand?" he repeated.

"Yes," she said finally, glaring at him.

He pushed her away so abruptly that she had to catch hold of the desk to regain her balance. Then she simply stood and watched him.

Anyone else, Pomona thought, would have rubbed their just-twisted wrist. But not Minerva McGonagall. She wouldn't give Severus the satisfaction of knowing he'd hurt her. Pomona respected that sort of determination, she supposed, even though she herself preferred to be a little more flexible in small things -- it made life more livable in the long run.

But still. Minerva wasn't the only brave one around here. Sprout was a war veteran, too, after all, and it was time to show what a Hufflepuff could do. Taking a deep breath, she spoke up. "Sev. . .I mean, Headmaster. I think you're being. . ."

Snape stepped to the door and opened it. "Get out, Pomona," he said, his eyes never leaving Minerva. "The Deputy and I have some business to discuss."

Sprout glanced at Minerva, who gave her the briefest of nods before turning immediately back to Severus.

The tension and apparent hatred that swirled around her colleagues made Pomona feel slightly ill, and it was with a sense of guilty relief that she ducked quickly past the new headmaster and hurried out, certain -- and hopeful -- that he would forget about her before she was halfway down the stairs.

~ ~ ~

Snape

Snape closed the door and then extended his hands towards McGonagall.

"Give me the wards," he said.

Minerva understood the procedure as well as he did, Snape knew: in the event of the sudden death of a headmaster or mistress, control over the castle's complex protective enchantments passed immediately and automatically to the deputy. But when a new, permanent head took over in a more conventional manner, the access had to be exchanged, in person, in front of witnesses. Often, the process was part of an elaborate installation ceremony, but Snape had no interest in useless pomp. The portraits would be adequate observers.

"The wards, Minerva," he snapped. "Now."

He stood unmoving, expecting her come to him, and she did, slowly placing her hands in his.

"Albus?" Snape called. "Phineas Nigellus? Are you paying attention? You're our witnesses."

Closing his eyes, he held McGonagall's fingers and let his mind reach toward hers. There was a brief moment of searching before their thoughts joined, catching and meshing like perfectly-fitted gears.

And then a rush of power flooded into him; he could hear it, smell it, sense it in sparkles of colour that he felt more than saw. His heart jolted -- suddenly he could feel the great castle as if it were in his veins, pulsing, almost breathing with him.

The colours swirling in his mind now shaped themselves into the bodies and faces of all the former Heads of Hogwarts, each of whom had left his or her mark upon the school they had served. He could actually see himself joining these former Heads: his mind became a corridor filled with the seemingly-living bodies of the portraits as they passed him in time-honoured order, all of them nearly corporeal. He could almost feel the touch of Phineas Nigellus's congratulatory hand on his arm, could almost smell the lemon of Albus's wretched sweets.

The last to pass was Minerva. Perhaps because she still lived, perhaps because she had held the position so briefly, she was the most wraithlike, but even so, as she approached him, he could see clearly the tense line of her shoulders, the fierce resolve in her face. Yet with each step, her image shimmered and grew more insubstantial until, just as she drew abreast of him, she disappeared.

"The exchange is complete. Welcome, Headmaster Snape of Slytherin."

Phineas Nigellus's proud voice brought Snape back into the Headmaster's office; he opened his eyes to see the real Minerva standing before him, pale from the power drain, but otherwise composed. She dropped her hands to her sides.

"If there's nothing else, Headmaster, I'll be on my way," she said, stepping around him to open the door.
Again there was the slightest of pauses before she spoke his title; Snape could hear mockery beneath her surface blandness.

The adrenaline left over from the ward transfer shifted abruptly into fury, and he shot out his arm, slamming the door shut and then using his body to shove her against it.

"Severus!"

Snape heard Dumbledore's outrage and took pleasure in ignoring it. "You'll serve under me, Minerva?" he asked, his face only millimetres from hers. "Did you mean that?"

She looked at him steadily. "You'll do whatever it takes to serve. . .whatever end it is you serve," she said. "And I'll do whatever it takes to protect the students."

"Even if the price of protecting them is fucking me?"

There were gasps and little cries from the portraits, but McGonagall didn't blink. "Even if."

"Prove it." Slowly, Snape used his free hand to pull her hair out of its bun, drawing the long mass forward over her shoulder. "On your knees, Minerva," he said.

Her eyes searched his face, but he made sure she saw nothing there but casual contempt. Finally, wordlessly, she sank to the floor, her robes pooling about her. Snape opened his trousers and waited.

Her fingers on his balls were cool, and then her mouth on his cock was warm, and he quickly grew hard under her touch. She was as good as he expected -- too good, he realised, as her skilful hands and tongue brought him along much too fast for his purposes. "No, you don't," he muttered, gripping her head and slowing her; he would make her take him at his pace, not hers. He thrust deeply, his hands in her hair, and yet still, all too soon he was coming, biting his lip to stay silent, watching the long line of Minerva's throat as she swallowed. . .

And then he was done. Stepping away, he buttoned himself up and turned his back on her, walked to his desk, sat down behind it. Picked up a quill.

"I'll expect a list of incoming first-years with their blood status records tomorrow, Professor," he said, writing busily, never looking at her. "And the staff's schedules. That will be all."

Not until he heard the door close softly did Snape raise his head.

~ ~ ~

"Professor Snape!"

Severus carefully wrote another line before he turned to face Dumbledore's portrait. The old man was as upset as Snape had ever seen him, and he could feel the accusing eyes of the other portraits boring into his back.

"I would not have thought even you capable. . ." Dumbledore started, but Snape cut him off.

"Even I? You were happy enough to work with 'Even I' when it suited you, Albus. Even though you knew full well the sorts of things 'Even I' was expected to do on my evenings with the Dark Lord. Things far worse than this. So why do you profess to be shocked now?"

"Minerva. . ."

"For a spinster schoolteacher, that woman knows how to suck cock, Dumbledore," said Snape with deliberate crudeness. "Was that one of the many valuable services she provided you as your deputy?"

Only a slight narrowing of the eyes indicated Dumbledore's rage. As he had in life, he seemed calmest when he was at his deadliest, and the new headmaster was not sorry that the former headmaster now existed only in a frame on the wall.

"That comment deserves no reply, Severus," Dumbledore said quietly. "But for Minerva's sake, I will tell you that my behaviour with her was never other than professional and appropriate."

He gazed at Snape, his expression now quizzical. "What are you playing at, I wonder?" he asked, almost to himself. "It's more than just trying to keep Minerva in line; you accomplished that when you threatened the students. She doesn't know you've sworn to protect them --"

"And Death Eaters always keep their promises, do they?"

"You're no Death Eater. I'm sure of that if nothing else. Now what are you up to?"

"It's interesting to see how much death addles the brain, Albus. Because you seem to have forgotten that it was at your behest that I set out to make myself universally despised. For the good of the wizarding world, of course."

Dumbledore leaned forward again. "You didn't need. . ."

"Damn it, Albus! Stop pretending to be naïve. Or do you really not understand that in order to be hated, I have to make myself hateful? Rewarding though they are, sneers and sarcasm alone do not a pariah make. Any more than pocketsful of sherbet lemons make you a sweet man."

"Resent me all you like, Severus. I asked unforgivable things of you, I know. But I need to know the truth; there's too much at stake. I realise that you can't afford to have people suspect you of anything less than full loyalty to Voldemort. . ."

Snape interrupted. "And unfortunately, as you heard, Minerva hasn't been convinced by your grand plan to cast me as a murderous monster -- "

"Yes, as you say," Dumbledore agreed, talking him down firmly, "Minerva doesn't seem to believe that you are a murderer. But she already seemed angry with you, so do not try to tell me that the only way you could secure her enmity was through this sort of humiliation. There's something else going on here, Severus; what is it?"

Snape looked at him consideringly. Finally he said, "Several years ago, Minerva and I had a sexual relationship."

If a portrait could be gobsmacked, Dumbledore's was. "I. . .didn't know that," he said slowly.

Snape gave the dry snort that served him as laughter. "What's this? Dumbledore dumfounded? In less than an hour, I've managed to shock you, enrage you, and surprise you, Albus. I think that must be a record."

"Fifty points to Slytherin," snickered the portrait of Phineas Nigellus.

"You didn't know because we didn't choose to have you know," Snape continued, ignoring Phineas. "You weren't as god-like as it pleased you to believe. In any event, Minerva ended the affair when the Dark Lord returned."

Dumbledore peered over his spectacles. "And what you forced her to do today. . ."

"Her choice."

Albus just looked at him. "This was your revenge on her?"

"Not at all. It was my gift to her."

Turning, Snape stalked out of the office without another word.

~ ~ ~

Once he reached the corridor below his office, Severus slowed, feeling suddenly light-headed. The acrid taste of too much magic burned at the back of his throat; it appeared that adjusting to the castle's power would be more difficult than he had anticipated.

That power thrummed deep inside him, following the rhythm of his own heartbeat, and for a moment he was assailed by a claustrophobia that made him almost desperate to snatch a breath in counterpoint, to reassure himself that he was still a separate entity.

But then reason and years of control reasserted themselves, and he was able to continue walking with only a slight break in stride. The castle was a tool to be mastered, and Snape liked to think of himself as a master of mastery. He would learn, and he would cope, and he would be "Headmaster" in more than name.

Of course, he wasn't foolish enough to think that he had mastered Albus Dumbledore, as either man or portrait, but nonetheless, there was a good deal of satisfaction to be had in occasionally besting him, as Snape knew he had done this afternoon.

Even in death, Dumbledore wanted to be the one in control -- of knowledge, of secrets, of people. And yet even that wasn't enough. Albus wasn't content merely to with dazzle people with unexpected and theatrical displays of his omniscience, like a cheap Muggle stage magician. No, he wanted people to know that they didn't know. And that he did. And that they never would know unless he chose to tell them.

Snape relished the fact that his former mentor was now in that state he'd so enjoyed inflicting on others: ensnared in the frustrating tangles of conscious ignorance. He'd be as unable to understand Snape's cryptic departing words as he was to leave his imprisoning frames.

Yes, Severus thought with savage pleasure, Dumbledore would spend his half-lit eternity never understanding the legacy that Snape was leaving to Minerva McGonagall.

And if all went according to plan, neither would she.

~ ~ ~

As Snape reached the top of the main staircase, he again experienced a surge of the castle's magic. This time, however, he could discern differences: there were levels . . .flavours, almost, that hovered just beyond his sense of taste, colours just beyond his sight. He stopped, his hand on the banister, and closed his eyes, letting the feel of the enchantments wash through him. Sensations merged and then separated; if he concentrated, he could. . .see.

There were the wards, arching over and around him, visible as bands of unbroken black -- all was well there. The school itself lay in his mind like a three-dimensional, transparent model. Some rooms contained a softly-glowing smudge of reddish warmth -- living people, he decided. Wispy trails of blue and gold snaked along some of the corridors and in some of the rooms; when he focused on them, he could feel the prickles of recently-completed spells and charms.

He wondered if other headmasters and headmistresses had seen the same visions, or if the castle manifested itself differently for each person. What had it looked like to her. . .to Minerva?

As he thought of her, he realised he could sense her specific presence. The image of the castle wavered and faded, until all that remained was a spot on his mind, like a bruise, where he could feel her, could feel her essential Minerva-ness, even though it was overlaid just now with layers of rage. . .pain. . .loss, sensations so strong that he couldn't tell if they were her feelings or his own.

~ ~ ~

The entry hall was deserted as Snape passed through on his way out into the Hogwarts grounds. Normally he had little use for the outdoors, enduring it only when he needed to gather potions ingredients, but just now even the endless empty skies were preferable to the oppression of the castle and its portraits and its magic.

And its Minerva. There had always been something between him and Minerva, even in his student days. It had not been sexual then: Minerva never gave any evidence of finding adolescents romantically appealing, and Severus had never been one for crushes on teachers; he'd distrusted his professors along with nearly everyone else he knew. McGonagall he had distrusted both on principle and as Head of the House that sheltered Sirius Black and James Potter.

Yet she had unsettled him in ways that the other professors had not. "You are not without ability, Mr Snape," she had said to him one afternoon in his third year, and he had known her well enough by then to understand that this was high praise. "Do not waste it."

After that, he'd often had the sense that she was pushing him, testing him. Sometimes, he knew, he failed the tests, and she would tighten her lips as if she'd made a bet with herself that he was causing her to lose. But as time went on, his failures became rarer, and her losses, however she defined them, far fewer.

He kept a sharp memory from his sixth year of his success with a tricky transfiguration that had earned him her best compliment -- "Exactly right, Mr Snape" -- and five points for Slytherin. He could still see how she'd looked as she'd turned away, her eyes glittering, her pointed face marked by a triumphant half-smile. He knew that he was participating in a constant competition that only she understood and whose score she never forgot.

That feeling had returned when he'd come back to Hogwarts to teach. Rumour had it that Minerva had opposed his appointment, but if that were true, her behaviour never hinted at it. During his first year, she treated him with unfailing, if distant, professional courtesy. But gradually he'd felt that old, challenging edge return, and soon he began to enjoy competing with her by his own choice, carefully keeping his own score.

Their eventual positions as Heads of rival Houses gave a plausible public face to the growing tension between them, but never did Snape believe that their personal contests were actually about Quidditch matches or House Cups. For a long time, he'd thought they were really about his history as a Death Eater and about Dumbledore's insistence upon trusting him.

He hadn't recognised the other possibilities until one night after he'd been teaching for several years. The Ministry had proposed a revision of the Potions curriculum, and Snape had gone to the Deputy Headmistress to object.

He'd found Minerva in her chambers, for it was late in the evening, and she'd sat on the sofa while he paced and ranted. At first she had listened carefully, but eventually she lost patience.

"Severus," she'd said tightly, "you cannot simply show up at the Department of Magical Education, sneer at the ministers and the Hogwarts Board, inform them that they are idiots, and then stalk out. Your billowing-robe routine is quite effective on children, but I don't think it will have much impact on people like the Averys. They're powerful and ruthless and will require tact and careful handling --"

Snape stopped his pacing and stood directly over her, his lip curling. "You routinely let 12-year-olds get the better of your temper, and you're lecturing me about tact? And what do you know about 'people like the Averys'? Were you ever out there with them, father or son, while they happily did You-Know-Who's worst bidding?"

Minerva, he saw, had gone very still. "You're going to play 'Competitive Darkness' with me now, are ye, Severus? That's the plan, is it?" she asked, her voice brogue-thick and dangerously soft. "You're going to suggest that your few years of serving as sullen bad boy to a posturing lunatic have given you a worldly understanding that a pitiful, school-bound old woman can't possibly match? Well, think again, lad."

She rose and faced him, not yielding an inch to his looming bulk. "Don't you dare patronise me, Severus Snape. I have war stories that would make your Dark Lord weep."

Her eyes snapped with anger, and he could feel heat crackle between them. He was suddenly intensely aware of her -- the hint of her spicy perfume, the lift of her breasts under her robes, the sharp edge of her jaw. He wondered how that edge would feel under his thumb, and all at once he was harder than he'd been since his teenage years.

Minerva had been over sixty then, while Severus was still shy of thirty -- not the age gulf it would be for Muggles, true, but still quite a difference. Yet when Snape looked back at that night, he couldn't recall giving age or situation or experience a thought. What he remembered was the press of his trousers on his cock and the play of the firelight on her face and the fact that when he'd reached out to touch her, she had reached back.

They'd never made it to her bed, not that first time. He'd taken her there on the sofa, taken her from behind with one arm around her waist and the other across her breasts, one leg bent along the cushions and other braced on the floor to give him the force he needed. He remembered how tightly he'd held her and how hard he'd thrust, bending over her, feeling his sweat slick their bodies as he moved his hand to stroke between her thighs. He'd been inside her, but even then, he'd not felt close enough, he'd wanted to be part of her, to merge with her, to own her. . .he'd settled for making her come first, exulting when it happened. She'd cried out and arched against him, her muscles clenching, her head thrown back, and he had leant down to mark her pale neck.

~ ~ ~

The first time Minerva had bound him, he had found himself resisting, reminded too vividly of painful moments with Potter and Black and Voldemort.

She'd stopped at the first sign of his reluctance. "I will never do anything you don't want, Severus," she'd said. "It is your choice, fully. I shan't think any the less of you if you refuse.'"

Oddly, given their constant competition, he'd believed her. Somewhere over the years, he had come to trust Minerva McGonagall. And as he thought about it, he saw that there would be satisfaction in yielding to that trust, a freedom in turning over the decisions and the struggles and the roles to someone else, with nothing demanded of him but his own pleasure and hers.

Plus, it occurred to him that if he refused to submit to her in this way, he'd be showing her greater weakness than if he simply gave himself over to whatever she planned.

No, he realised, as his cock gave a twitch, he didn't want to refuse.

But neither did he want her to think she'd won too easy a victory, so he sat back and scowled at her. "You won't think less of me?" he'd said. "Right, and I suppose next you'll be trying to claim that James Potter was a wee nice lad. I'm not falling for it, Minerva. So go ahead; do your worst."

Her smile told him that he wasn't fooling her.

"Fine," she said, and let the smile turn predatory. "We'll start with a little respite from that wagging tongue. For the moment."

Inexperienced as he'd been then, he'd expected her to use a Silencing charm, but she'd preferred a silken gag, in Slytherin colours, that she transfigured from his shirt and tied herself, slowly and tightly.

"Quite a charming picture," she said as she finished and stood back to look at him. "And what's more, you'll still be able to make a few wee nice sounds."

That time, her smile had hardly been a smile at all.

~ ~ ~

She was so clear about what she wanted, and so at ease with her wanting, that he knew she was no stranger to other people's beds and games. For reasons of his own, it mattered to him who those others had been.

He thought about asking her, late one night when they lay sated and quiet, but he was fairly certain -- despite the fact that mere minutes earlier, he'd been buried deep within her -- that she would deem such questions too personal.

So he waited until the upper hand was his, until he had her bound and naked, her hair streaming darkly over the ivory of her breasts, and then he had asked. Who? When?

She didn't reply.

"No answer?" he'd said, allowing himself a slight sneer as he'd tilted up her chin with one finger. "Are you going to use your safeword then, Minerva? Be the first to break?"

This challenge had got to her, as he'd known it would, and so, her voice tight with anger, she had told him. It wasn't a long catalogue, of course -- Minerva was discriminating, reserved, and of a generation that distrusted profligacy. So she hadn't listed many partners, just a few men, and rather to Snape's surprise, one woman.

But the name he had feared wasn't there, and he let himself relax. She could have been lying, he supposed, but it suited him to take her word. He didn't want to let her know that it was important to him that she'd never had sex with Albus.

Yet it very much was. Albus Dumbledore had already taken enough from him.

~ ~ ~

The affair with Minerva, occasional though it was and carefully concealed from literally everyone, became a touchstone in Snape's life. They met one Friday a month, Minerva being a woman of schedules. Snape looked forward to his submissive evenings as much as he did to his dominant ones: the chance to put all his responsibilities into Minerva's hands was as appealing as the chance to bend her to his will.

And then had come the final night of the Triwizard Tournament, the night that saw the deaths of Cedric Diggory and essentially of Barty Crouch, Jr., and, as far as Severus was concerned, of himself as well. The fact that he still breathed and ate and walked was of little matter: from the moment of the Dark Lord's return, Snape had felt the shears of the Fates touch the thread of his life. The only question remaining was when the "snip" would come.

They had closed a bit, those shears, on the evening after Diggory's death, when Snape had gone to Minerva's rooms to keep their regular assignation. She had invited him in, given him brandy, and then refused to let him touch her. "It's too dangerous now, Severus. Your mind and time will no longer be your own, and neither of us can risk knowing too much. We can afford no distractions."

She was right; he knew she was. He'd even considered saying something similar. It was too dangerous to continue seeing each other now; they all had too much to lose. Even him.

Neither of them had ever spoken of permanence or commitment or anything like love. Severus wasn't in love with Minerva, and he had never expected their arrangement to last even as long as it had.

And yet, when she turned away from him, it felt like a little death.

~ ~ ~

Outwardly, nothing changed. Snape's public relationship with McGonagall continued much as it always had; they treated each other exactly as the colleagues everyone thought they were. Snape prided himself on his ability to show only those emotions people expected of him, and Minerva, too, was expert at donning the professional mask.

Only once after the Dark Lord's return had they met as lovers, during the summer following Minerva's Stunning at the hands of High Inquisitor Umbridge and her Ministry stooges. In the castle one evening, it had been just the two of them at dinner, and somehow they had ended up in Severus's bed, making love with a gentleness he hadn't known either of them possessed. They had fallen asleep together afterward, curled against one another, but when he had awakened at first light, he'd been alone.

In the months that followed, the months leading to Dumbledore's death, he had scarcely seen Minerva. Oppressed as much by Dumbledore's demands as by Voldemort's, Snape had spent as much time as possible by himself, and the one time that he and McGonagall had spoken at length -- the day that Harry Potter had used the Sectumsempra curse on Draco Malfoy -- they had argued bitterly.

Minerva had not questioned Snape's punishment of Harry, but the entire subject of Potter was too charged between them; neither could let it drop. One comment had led to another, the argument had moved from Harry to the always-festering sore spot that was Lupin and Black and James Potter, to Dumbledore and Voldemort, and finally, to themselves.

Snape had never underestimated Minerva's skill with either wand or words, and he knew himself to be her equal. They had duelled viciously, verbally, their tongues cutting as deep as any Sectumsempra.

Only this time, there had been no healing incantation to stanch the wounds.

And yet. . .and yet underneath the acrimony and accusations, Snape had sensed her regret -- and his own. He knew that they fought not only about what they'd been and what they'd had, but also about what they would never be and would never have. And what they both missed.

There had been -- or they had taken -- no chance to make amends before the flood of Dumbledore's death had swept all before it, and Snape had been gone.

~ ~ ~

Now he was back.

His walk through the grounds had taken him past the lake and the Quidditch field to the outlying hills, but the sun was setting, and he needed to return. As he reached the edge of the Forbidden Forest, he could no longer avoid the sight of the castle, of the hard reality of its hewn stone and mullioned glass. As much of a sanctuary as Hogwarts had once been for him, Snape did not delude himself that he would still find protection within its walls. That he was entering the final phase of his life, he still did not doubt. And he had much to do.

Today, he'd begun his first task: he'd faced Minerva, driven her to her knees in front of him, and started the process of saving her.

He had told Dumbledore the truth, secure in the knowledge that the old devil would never believe him: threats and duress were his gifts to Minerva, the only ones left worth the giving. With them, he would ensure her survival if he could, and he would spare her any further regret.

It had been had been a consolation to him, her regret, but that solace was one he could no longer afford. Far better and safer that she despise him, as she must by now. He would use all the means at his disposal to make certain that when he departed Hogwarts for the last time, she would lament neither the loss of him nor their paths not taken. He would make sure that she could hate him cleanly. And mourn him not at all.

Snape let his steps carry him to the castle's heavy main doors. They opened soundlessly as he approached, recognising his position.

The Headmaster of Hogwarts stood for a moment at the threshold, looking back at the shadow-crossed grounds. Then he strode through the grand entry hall and began the long climb to his new office.

~ ~ ~

McGonagall

Minerva McGonagall scorned the idea of using alcohol to escape the things one was afraid to face: pain or truth or oneself. Life had many pleasures, to be sure, but on the whole, to live was to struggle, to know sorrow and sting, and it was best simply to accept that fact and get on with it. To do anything else was simply weakness.

Yet here she sat, next to a half-empty bottle of firewhisky that had been full only an hour earlier. She'd opened it after she'd arrived back at her rooms to find Pomona waiting for her, dear, brave Pomona, her kind face pinched with concern, her shoulders squared in her determination to stand with Minerva no matter what the cost. Pomona rarely imbibed, so the swiftness with which she'd accepted the offer of a dram let Minerva know that it wasn't a drink she wanted so much as the normality of it, the chance to reassure herself that nothing had really changed. She'd wanted to be told that everything would be all right, and Minerva had even been willing to say it. But they had both known it as a lie.

Pomona hadn't stayed long after that; the truth hung too heavy in the air, and Minerva was left alone with her open bottle.

The whisky had been a present from Horace Slughorn at Christmas -- the same gift he'd given to all those on the staff whom he deemed of no social use to him. It proved to be an inferior distillation, cheap and raw, an insult. It was a spirit unfit to consume except as punishment, and Minerva knew she was going to sit and drink it until it was gone.

Or at least until she could forget what she had seen in Severus's eyes earlier. Not his contempt or derision, although he had worked hard to make her think he felt them, and probably he did. She'd given him enough cause, in their last horrific argument, and he had done the same to her.

Still, she had missed Severus sorely these past months, had missed him, in fact, ever since their liaison ended. Missed him despite the lingering pain of their fight and the anger she felt over his obvious collusion with Albus in the latter's death.

Both the rage and the loss had filled her again today when she had looked at Severus and realised that he fully intended to die in the battles that were surely coming.

She knew, of course, that he had not really gone over to Voldemort's side. The fact that she still lived was proof enough of that. Had Snape been a genuine enemy, he would have taken the first opportunity, once Albus was gone, to neutralize the danger that she and the rest of the Order represented. The fact that he had not done so told her where he stood.

It was proof, yes, but proof she hadn't needed. She knew Severus was not a true Death Eater because she knew Severus. She knew him, and not just physically. Sex was only the consequence of her knowing him, not the cause.

Which was not to say that she had any illusions about him, romantic or otherwise. He was not a kind man or a particularly well-meaning one; he could be cruel, vicious, chillingly indifferent, and he was mostly content to be so.

But for all that, he had a code that he lived by, a difficult code that had led him, ultimately, to worthy ends, and he had an equally worthy mind, and in any case, she herself was not so free of viciousness and cruelty that she could afford to judge him. She had failed him, as boy and man, in ways that he had not failed her. And she was worse than he, for she had justified her own unforgivables, curses and otherwise, in the name of good.

So when he had ordered her to her knees, she had done it, because she knew the price he'd paid and that he still paid. She had dropped down and taken him in her mouth as of old, and a foolish part of her had hoped that he might recognise and accept her action for what it was: an offer of the only gift she had left worth the giving -- her permanent submission (or as much of it as she could afford), the surrendering of her will to his, if only he would be prepared to live.

She should have known better, of course; one couldn't bargain with Fate, and even before she knelt at his feet, she had seen in Severus's eyes that he had already chosen his. He would let himself be destroyed, perhaps even welcomed his destruction, and there was nothing she could do.

It infuriated her as much as anything he'd ever done. She didn't know who she'd find harder to forgive: him, or herself.

Her glass was empty again, and she moved to fill it. It was weakness, she knew. But it meant that for tonight, at least, she didn't have to think or feel or imagine what this next year, spent under Severus, would bring. Or how it might end.

She lifted the whisky bottle and poured herself another substantial measure.

Coward, she thought, and downed the lot.

Her throat burned, though whether with the taste of the whisky or the taste of Severus, she couldn't have said.

~ ~ ~

Outside, the late-summer sun had finished its slow descent. It had been a lovely day, this last but one before the students arrived for the new term at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry.

Around the castle's current occupants, the wards arched and circled and hummed, and darkness settled on the ceiling of the Great Hall.

Comments

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therealsnape
Oct. 1st, 2009 08:54 pm (UTC)
This is wonderful!
My dear, how can I even begin to say 'thank you'? I love this story. It addresses exactly the thing I always found odd myself: that McG didn't figure out the truth about Albus's murder, simply because she and the other Order members were still alive.
I admit that you had me well out of my comfort zone when Snape ordered fellatio. But that whole scene from his POV made both that request and their previous relationship so utterly believable.
And the Minerva POV too!
And so many spot-on details. Phineas Nigellus. The quality of Slughorn's Christmas gift. And the terrific supporting role by Albus.
I'm so very, very pleased with this.
There's just one downside: this being my first fest, it's also my first gift. And you've spoiled me for once and for all.
I'm off to my own journal to pimp your story, but I'll probably want to return to rave some more.
THANK YOU !
kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:00 am (UTC)
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I'm so glad you liked it; I was afraid it would be too far outside your comfort zone. Thanks for quoting the lines you enjoyed and for leaving such lovely comments. I'll be happy to write for you again /g/.
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kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:02 am (UTC)
I'm glad "Gifts" read as IC to you; I always end up doubting myself. So kind of you to read/comment (het, no less /g/)
secretsolitaire
Oct. 2nd, 2009 12:38 am (UTC)
This is fabulous. I really loved the magic of the wards. I also liked the progression from Pomona's naive perspective to Snape's knowing one as he fills in the backstory, and then to Minerva's even wiser one as she reveals that Snape hasn't managed to deceive her. Wonderful characterizations all around.
kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:06 am (UTC)
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Thanks so much -- a sense of progression in the povs was just what I hoped to achieve. Glad you think it works.
minervas_eule
Oct. 2nd, 2009 07:48 am (UTC)
I am absolutely stunned! In way of a comment I can only subscribe to all the three ahead of me.... the magic of the wards is beautifully described and the main story is very believable in its descriptions of why and how they all know and try to keep it from one another (I hope you know what I am trying to say...) - sooooo great!
kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:07 am (UTC)
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Glad you liked the picture of the wards; I enjoyed writing that part. Thanks for commenting!
miss_morland
Oct. 2nd, 2009 07:09 pm (UTC)
There is so much to love about this story: the psychological depth, the dramatic irony, the writing. McG and Snape's relationship is complex and unsentimental, just as it should be, and you made me ache for both of them.

Some favourite lines:

Rewarding though they are, sneers and sarcasm alone do not a pariah make. Any more than pocketsful of sherbet lemons make you a sweet man."

"Fifty points to Slytherin," snickered the portrait of Phineas Nigellus.

threats and duress were his gifts to Minerva, the only ones left worth the giving.

Pomona waiting for her, dear, brave Pomona, her kind face pinched with concern, her shoulders squared in her determination to stand with Minerva no matter what the cost.


A wonderful story; thank you!
kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:09 am (UTC)
Thank you for the detailed review and for the so-very-useful beta. And for that word "unsentimental" -- you can't know how happy that makes me. I sometimes have quite a sentimental streak when it comes to reading, but I'm always fighting not to write it!
inamac
Oct. 2nd, 2009 07:45 pm (UTC)
That is a fascinating and beautifully written explanation of a much neglected period in canon. The relationships between Pomona and Minerva, Dumbledore and Phineus, and everyone with Snape are so believable. All that and an understated D/s turnabout relationship between two of the most adult people in Hogwarts. What more could one ask?

Oh yes - that picture of the Hogwarts wards - enchanting.
kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:11 am (UTC)
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two of the most adult people in Hogwarts

This comment pleased me so much, I can't tell you. That's always my goal -- to make my characters adult. It's such a pleasure to hear that they came across that way. Thank you for the feedback.
therealsnape
Oct. 2nd, 2009 10:59 pm (UTC)
Back again
Because pets have their uses, don't they? They provide constant love. They can be trained. Made to heel. Even given simple tasks. . ." Love the simile!
He could almost feel the touch of Phineas Nigellus's congratulatory hand on his arm, could almost smell the lemon of Albus's wretched sweets. This whole section is great, but I love the characterisation of Phineas and the acerbic remark about Albus.
but he made sure she saw nothing there but casual contempt. Only on the second reading (then knowing SS POV)did I fully appreciate this!
"For a spinster schoolteacher, that woman knows how to suck cock, Dumbledore," Hahaha!
the new headmaster was not sorry that the former headmaster now existed only in a frame on the wall Yes, I can fully understand that. However nice a bit of AD bashing is, he was a great wizard. Perfectly IC.
sneers and sarcasm alone do not a pariah make. Any more than pocketsful of sherbet lemons make you a sweet man."
could feel her essential Minerva-ness
She was so clear about what she wanted, and so at ease with her wanting, I love all of the MM/SS sex scenes, the realistic positions, the realistic bodies, the way they interact, the tender *making love* at the end. But I so love your Minerva in this line!
when he departed Hogwarts for the last time, she would lament neither the loss of him nor their paths not taken. He would make sure that she could hate him cleanly. And mourn him not at all. So utterly Snape. The first part, perfectly canon. And that last line. She will, and indeed, he can't imagine that.
Coward, she thought, Beautiful tie-in to canon.
And perhaps my favourite of all: She had failed him, as boy and man, in ways that he had not failed her. I've so often wondered how McG felt about the bullying by the Marauders. How much she knew of it, how much she did to prevent it, how she felt afterwards.
In case you hadn't noticed: I love my gift!
kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:11 am (UTC)
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You are too good to me! Thank you so much again.
psyfic
Oct. 3rd, 2009 07:19 am (UTC)
here from snapenews. That was deftly tied to canon, scorching hot and lovingly depicted. Very well done!

clapping
kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:14 am (UTC)
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lovingly depicted -- Thank you so much for this. I do love this pairing, even when I'm torturing the poor things. Glad you liked it.
kennahijja
Oct. 3rd, 2009 01:02 pm (UTC)
I'm still half out of words to express how much I love this - the differences between the three perspectives, the slow way that gives us insight to what is truly going on, the way this relationship between Minerva and Snape suits their personalities without a touch of romance that just wouldn't work, but still with a depth that makes Snape's one-line reaction to breaking it off hurt like hell.

I loved Snape's way of getting revenge on Albus - shock, and worse even, I felt, denying him knowledge. Loved Snape's angry, utterly private nobility in what he thinks is 'protecting' Minerva, and the brilliant, brilliant final part where she sees through all of it.

It's perfect as a behind-canon string of missing scenes, as a character study of quite a lot of people, and in pacing and structure and style. Wow. Perhaps I've not read as much Snape/Minerva as I should have, but I read quite a bit, and this is the best I've ever seen so far.
kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:19 am (UTC)
Thank you, excellent mod! There's a lot of stellar Snape/McG out there, and it pleases me no end to hear that you think this story is a worthy part of the tradition. A comment to treasure.
sor_bet
Oct. 5th, 2009 03:47 am (UTC)
Amazing fic. So IC that it's completely believable as a missing scene, and wonderful writing. The "Even I" paragraph just killed me. Not enough words to describe how good this fic is.
kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:20 am (UTC)
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Thank you! Being IC is one of my main writing goals; I'm glad you found it so.
snegurochka_lee
Oct. 11th, 2009 04:38 pm (UTC)
Urf, I read this when it was first posted and had to dash off after, but I came back to it today to reread and savour, and finally leave you an overdue comment! I enjoyed it so very much. I love this pairing at the best of times, but you really nailed it, I thought. Both Snape and McGonagall are such strong characters -- their argument that led to the first sexual encounter just made my knees weak; strong!McGonagall gets me every time. I love how you set it just as Snape returned to the castle as Headmaster, too; a fabulous "missing" canon scene! I loved how he ordered her submission in front of the portraits, too, ahaha eeee! And Albus's reaction was perfect.

And I REALLY loved what you did with the magic of the wards. How very cool! And beautifully described. :)
kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:24 am (UTC)
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Thanks! Even though I think of myself mostly as an f/f writer, I'm a total sucker for McGonagall/Snape; I'm glad you think they work here. And thank you even more for your kind LJ rec; I do appreciate it.
themostepotente
Oct. 11th, 2009 04:43 pm (UTC)
Oh, wow. You've done a brilliant job here of illustrating the exact type of relationship I can see the two of them having. You express their feelings without giving them away down to their healthy House rivalries. You had a line in here about Minerva's accent turning brogue with lust that really did me in. Your Snape/McGonagall dynamic pushes so many of my buttons, I'm almost embarrassed to elaborate...

Just. GUH.

kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:26 am (UTC)
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Thank you for this fine comment and for your lovely LJ rec; they both pleased me no end. Glad you like this version of the pairing.
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daiseechain
Oct. 13th, 2009 12:37 am (UTC)
Beautiful. Just beautiful.

This is the first Snape/McGonagall I've read, and I suspect it's spoiled me now for any others.

Superb writing of character, emotion, and detail.
kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:28 am (UTC)
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Thanks! I hope you'll be converted to McGonagall/Snape now; I find it such a fun pairing, in its angsty, tension-filled way. And thanks for the LJ mention, too; so nice of you.
torino10154
Oct. 13th, 2009 01:41 pm (UTC)
Followed Lee's rec-brilliant work here. I just love everything from Snape's return to all the fantastic backstory between them. Really intense. Marvelous work.
kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:30 am (UTC)
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Glad you enjoyed the backstory; I love filling in the cracks of canon. There's just so much potential depth to explore. Thank you for reading.
megyal
Oct. 18th, 2009 12:12 am (UTC)
I don't even know what to say to this story, except it is amazing. I'm stunned by the emotion and the exchange of the wards and this line in particular:
She shot a look at Dumbledore's portrait, and Pomona was shocked at the depth of hurt and resentment she saw in her friend's face.

Goodness.
kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:32 am (UTC)
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Thank you! I'm glad you liked the bit about the wards; often when I write HP, I get caught up in the characters and forget the magic, so that part was fun to write.
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kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:35 am (UTC)
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And I loved this comment; truly, it made my day to think I was able to write a "gut-punch" fic; it's what I so often hope for. Your LJ rec was lovely, too. I appreciate the level of detail; it's always a treat to know what bits work. Thanks!
bethbethbeth
Oct. 18th, 2009 05:35 am (UTC)
This is fantastic...sharp as cold steel and achingly painful - and so very real. I'll absolutely be adding this to my recs page at the next update after names have been attached to the stories of this fest.
kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:36 am (UTC)
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sharp as cold steel

Thank you! Just the effect I was hoping for. I appreciate the rec.
ziasudra_fic
Oct. 18th, 2009 03:27 pm (UTC)
I love to read a good Snape/Minerva fic every once in a while, and I'm so glad for my flist pointing me this way! This was very well done -- both in the present and in the past, revealed through Snape and Minerva's POVs. I especially loved the backstory you showed through Snape's perspective. The first time they got together and how they continued this unconventional liaison... that section was scorching. <3
kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:39 am (UTC)
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that section was scorching

I'm so glad you thought so; sex scenes are always such a gamble, and I'm always relieved when someone thinks they work. Thanks for commenting.
tuawahine
Oct. 18th, 2009 05:26 pm (UTC)
Oh wow! This really packed a punch. And reading the beginning again after knowing the rest, it's even more powerful.
Great pairing, great characterisation, very powerful emotions. I loved it!
kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:41 am (UTC)
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Thank you! I'm glad you like the pairing; it's probably my OTP for Harry Potter het.
amorettea
Oct. 21st, 2009 04:04 am (UTC)
So painful, so perfect! Every detail, every nuance, every word, was spot on brilliant! I have no words to fully express my admiration for this story. Gasp. Sob. Applause.
kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:41 am (UTC)
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Thank you so much! I'm really glad it worked.
lyras
Oct. 27th, 2009 12:52 am (UTC)
This review is well overdue, and I'm feeling a bit wordless, unfortunately, but I just wanted to say that I read this and really enjoyed it! It was so well structured, with the different points of view and the way Minerva's relationship with Severus was gradually revealed. I loved what you did with the wards - really beautifully described.
kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:42 am (UTC)
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Thanks! I'm glad you enjoyed the structure and especially the magic bits.
lucianwolf
Nov. 8th, 2009 09:50 pm (UTC)
I loved how well she knew him and how well your characterization of him fits with the Snape that lives in my head.

I loved the desperation, the brokenness, the pain, the endurance, the silent love beneath a situation that cannot be denied.

And god, how I love cruel!ruthless!Snape.

Thank you.
kellychambliss
Nov. 11th, 2009 01:46 am (UTC)
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Thanks! the silent love beneath a situation I'm so glad you think this part comes across. I wanted some sort of love to be there, however unconventional it might be and however unable or unwilling the characters are to admit it and however much it can't save anything.
ysilme
Nov. 12th, 2009 01:26 am (UTC)
These are really unusual and unexpected gifts, but then, indeed the best ones possible under such circumstances, making the exchange as bittersweet as the whole situation and their relationship, too. I've enjoyed the story enormously, even though submission and domination are concepts rather foreign to me and the tale being somewhat out of my comfort zone.
kellychambliss
Nov. 12th, 2009 03:38 am (UTC)
Thank you for reading, especially since the story isn't quite your thing. I'm glad you enjoyed it!
islandsmoke
Jan. 19th, 2013 05:01 pm (UTC)
I asked Lee to rec her best Minerva/Severus, and she sent me here. This is amazing, just so... possible. I love the understanding between them and Minerva's refusal to budge in her faith of Severus, and his determination to make her hate him. Who, I wonder, will "win."
kellychambliss
Jan. 21st, 2013 03:16 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! It's kind of Lee to rec me, and very kind of you to read and to let me know your thoughts. I'm very attached to this story; it wasn't quite my first Minerva/Severus, but it was my first long one and the first in which I paid a lot of attention to creating a plausible backstory. I'm glad you find it believable; that's my main goal with this pairing.

If you're interested in further reading for MM/SS, I'll pimp my own Mutability and also rec Things We Lost (and Found) in the War by xylodemon and any McSnape fics by atdelphi, squibstress, and [personal profile] dueltastic.
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